AS IT IS..

Charming….what does it mean exactly? I’m thinking it’s something that attracts you even without realizing that you are bumping into it. Is the world charming enough to get noticed.? Well then there is no other word better than ‘charming’ to describe my world.. It instantly stimulates the pleasure centre of my brain and I get my centre of gravity drawn towards it..

     What’s so charming..? I look around.. ya I got something..it’s the tv showing me a draught ridden Africa with third world conditions and the largest refugee camp..tv always tells a lot,..so I scan thru.. hmmm what’s that..yaaa.. lady gaga is dressed up as a guy for the mtv music awards and that’s a big,huge thing according to the e! network..thats ok..whats next.. oh I love this one, it’s always hot and happening..a train load of people burnt alive due to religious riots..That’s an usual!! What else what else… will you look at that.. a documentary in bbc telling me,don’t give a shite about any of this because we all are gonna die anyways, in one of the million ways described in final destination or a ‘disaster’ movie….due to global warming or the mayan calendar or whatever those NASA people keep telling…

      We are totally screwed aren’t we?. Running around looking for something worthy to be drawn towards…by the end of the day we always WILL get charmed, by some or the other stupid things that does not make any part of our bleeding lives…to put it in a better way…we all ve radar in our head that always gets us moronic and picks up bummers or silly things.. that’s CHARMING..!!

     I love this line…life is a series of rooms and the “who’s” we are stuck in play a important part of our lives that just I.. I keep thinking about this often..is that true?? Am I judged and lead by people other than my own little brainy junior..i think so, to an extent.. but I think this too.. if it’s the rooms that are deterministic..then why make my room a narrow one..i can expand it as much as I can and include as many people I could! Not to be judged by so many but to understand how others mind works..

     So I decided(a looog time ago..!) that I should live my life to the fullest of its charmingness.. dead crazy or the most saddening one..!! just wanna feel what it’s like..I tend to be a big drama queen at times..never can help it..I changed that a little bit when a friend of mine told that I’m overreacting for small things…he is a complete down to earthy kind,very very much..! there are so many things I ve willingly changed over the years…due to many reasons! Wanna be liked by as many as I know,(yes! I am very much selfish)want to know as many things as possible..u know like..I wanted to have a opinion about everything..space,science,psychology,architecture,languages,politics! Most of all I’m a huge brown noser..u know..the one who tells people what they want to hear for personal benefits..it’s totally true except for the ‘personal benefit part’..I really mean that! Or not..Im not sure..when I do that I feel really good(as I told you, the most selfish person I ve ever known)..call me crazy but I really want to roam around the world just to meet different kinds of people..I don’t want to be stuck in one single place! I wanna do some good in this world..something! it drives me mad to be sitting around idle when I know that thousands are dying just because there is no one to look after them(I already told you..I tend to be a drama queen!)..

      Seriously think about it..end of the day it’s just all about me..! just me! I AM selfish..but I don’t want this to be in this sort of way..wish I could…do so MANY things as possible..but I need a lot more than be just ilakkia pandian ,nobody!

    Enough of this.. where did I start all this anyway..! charming world yeah..!? a huge wide universe with billions of stars,one of it being our galaxy and our sun,,and among thousands of planets ,one tiny tiny earth..and in this earth are billions of beings..from a protozoa to a big headed iit guy.. and im sitting in my dad’s tiny tiny house and typing in my brilliantly designed laptop(which by the way has millions of hands behind its being) writing something that I won’t even believe in if I get married and have my own headaches to govern.. the point being it’s our choices and our heart that leaves a niche to our being.. at this moment how I am is probably the true ‘myself’..anything can change over the years ..anything..! but I always will know that I don’t have a feel of belonging to anything in particular.. I belong to this world just as much as a cockroach does..! so what this charming world tells me is that im a global citizen with a GPS dot might be till I die..and I will never be grabbed by the atrocities of my present surroundings unless I REALLY want it! Im a freelance homosapien and...nothing more than that..!